NEW!!

Sorry Kyleen, but I've changed it again! 

I've got a new screen name and xanga, both under the same name.  I don't know why I didn't think of this before!

UTaylor526

At Ashlie's right now, work tomorrow.  Give me a call.

I have been busy lately, so my posts haven't been as long.  I am starting to sleep better.  I had a lot on my mind, and I didn't know where to start.  I have a problem asking for help.  But I am finally getting started on making things okay.  I'm not anywhere close to it yet, but at least I'm started. 

Work is going well.  It is stressful... very stressful.  Last night, I didn't get home till almost one.  At least it keeps me busy.

I leave for Austin on Monday...

I think I have a new favorite singer.  His name is Jim Black.  Check him out.

http://www.indieheaven.com/view_artist.idh?artist_id=46584

I am off today and Friday.  Give me a call if you want to do anything.

Work is going good, I am up there a lot.  I start getting my own tables this Tuesday, so that should be fun.  That is when I start making actual money... hopefully.  I am off Wednesday and Friday this week, call me if you want to do something. 

Still not sleeping well, still don't know why. 

Still lost in life, still searching.  I think that I am getting closer.  I hope that I'm getting closer.  Nothing is happening though.

I need to make more friends... no one answered their phone tonight.

I don't know anymore

I don't know anything anymore.  My life does not make sense.  I miss people I shouldn't miss.  Work is going great, but I am really tired.  I feel like I am searching for something, but I don't know where to look or what to do when I find it... or even what it is.  I have no clue where God wants me to be right now, and don't know how to find that either.  Maybe that is what I am looking for.  I am ready to be in Austin, but I am scared too.  Scared that I won't be good enough, or that others will be better.  I haven't been sleeping well lately, but I think thats because I have been staying up later than I should and I have a natural tendency to wake up early.  I haven't been working out this week, but I need to start, it usually makes me feel better.  But I don't have the desire to.  I think that is one of my problems, I don't have the desire to do anything anymore.  I want to be happy, or sad, or something besdies just here.  I feel like I am merely existing.  I need a purpose (Avenue Q springs to my mind.)  I miss you.  I shouldn't, but I do.  I don't know why either.  Sorry.  God... please help.

I have a new screen name, thanks to Kyleen.  Its RoyalTinStud (read it backwards and it will make sense)

I think I am going to make a new xanga to match my screen name.  I haven't yet. 

I am being stubborn and refusing to get a myspace.  I also refuse to learn Spanish.

I'm done.